Tuesday, May 30, 2006

Just Me.

It's late and I really should be in bed, but I was sitting here thinking, if someone who used to know me came and read my blog, what would they think of me?

Would they say I'm ditzy? Goofy? Silly? Unsubstantial? Unintellectual?


And you know what?

I don't really care what they would think. Because I AM all of the above.

I guess what I'm really thinking is that I am glad I can be myself. I don't have to worry about what anyone thinks about me. I have a husband who has seen all of the sides to my multi-faceted personality. And you know what? He loves me anyway. So if all the rest of the world sees is the goofy, silly, non-sensical side of me, that's okay. Because someone out there loves all of me.

I can just be... me.

8 comments:

Anonymous said...

Pooh I LOVE you !
And you know what... I LIKE you too.
I LOVE who you have become...who you are.

Anonymous said...

Are you kidding? Why do you think I liked you in the first place? I knew you were the perfect one to understand (not to mention put up with) my goofy son! Unintellectual? Yeah right! You must be pregnant or something...lol! I love you too...the other Mom

Anonymous said...

I love you just like you are too!! but I'm just a friend so I don't guess I count much lol =P

Anonymous said...

Hi, Rachel. PRAISE GOD! You're ablsolutely right--it doesn't matter what ANYBODY else thinks, only GOD. Just be what He made you to be. There's freedom in that! How miserable people are who are constantly worrying about what other people think and trying to sqeeze themselves into some mold that doesn't fit! Just be YOU! God didn't mess up when He made you--He made you SPECIAL. And I like you, too. :-) Somebody recently told me, "I HAVE to love you; God says so. But I don't have to LIKE you, but I do!" :-)

Anonymous said...

Thanks everyone, and yes you all count (including you Becky!)! Mom Riddell, yes, I can be unintellectual. It's one of my many "facets". I'm finding that I never make something out of nothing (ask Brad, if I have issues they are always legitimate issues). However, I'm finding that pregnancy is making things just more... intense. Happier, sadder, more irritated, more elated... etc. But the same things as always. So nothing is ever "just the pregnancy hormones talking". :-)

Sis. Smith, you are right! Even if Brad didn't love me, God still would, and that's where my security lies. But it is a blessing to have others like you too. I love that quote, my Mama has always told us kids that. She doesn't just love us, she LIKES us and likes being in our company. How many mothers have you heard say, "I can't STAND these kids, I can't wait until school starts back!" Sad. I'm thankful I never heard that from Mama.

Anonymous said...

I do love you sweetie, and always will no matter what :-)

Anonymous said...

awwww Rach!
sniffle sniffle sniffle
I like you lots and lots !
~Mama

Anonymous said...

and that is the hardest aspect of being single. at least for me. when i have my pity parties, the foremost thought on my mind is that there is nobody who sees who i really am & really loves me. wait, that's not entirely accurate. i have been blessed with extraordinarily caring friends and family who do love me. but even so, there is nobody who loves me BEST. that is the key. when you get married, it's saying to the world, "This is THE ONE! This is who I pick. I love this person more than any other on earth. And I want to spend the rest of my life with this one person." someday my prince will come. yes, he will. and he will love me. all of me. all of the kristy kwirks. but it is quite lonely in the meantime. i just felt like expressing that. thanks for listening.